This is sooooo UNFAIR!!

Apa la nasib..bangun2 je terus dapat berita yg sgt 'gumbira' ni.. tgk mesej, 'Wani dpt kelas 5 Amal'. I was like, "WHATTTT?????"
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terus rasa lemah longlai x bermaya dah nk g sekolah..kenapa asyik2 aku ja yg dpt kelas tu? i mean, again?? last time pn aku dpt kelas 5 Amal..tp depa dh abis skolah dh la taun dpn. Datang pulak 5 Amal yg ni, pn bagi aku jugakkkk??
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This is so so so so so so unfair okay PK! ooooo..it is so unfair when u give good classes to the same people, and the bad classes to the same people..kesian la kami mcm ni!! yg dpt kelas plg depan, asyik2 org yg sama taun ni wpun blainan tingkatan. pastu yg duk lap taik n gilap ctu cni, org yg mcm kami la?? asyik2 dpt kls ujung. asal kls ujung ja, bagi kt org yg sama. apa ni????
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bodo punya PK. ehhh..sorry la..ni blog aku, suka hati aku la nk mncarut ke nk mngutuk ke.. dh memang dia layak dipanggil mcm tu. Pentadbir semua tah apa2..ingat ye wahai pentadbir2 sekelian, anda adalah pemimpin, dan pemimpin perlulah adil. Pemimpin la yg mula2 akan disoal di akhirat kelak..and one of the unfair cases, is mine! here here! kenapa asyik bagi kelas ujung je kt aku? kls budak ganas??? hahhhh?
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asyik2 kami ckgu2 malang ni yg bkerja keras..phm2 jela klu dh kelas ujung. kls spm plak tuh! abis tu ckgu lain yg slalu dpt kls dpn tu watpe? rilek arrr..ape lg..dh budak bagus, xde la masalah sgt kn. budus!
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sesungguhnya hati aku dh mati utk sekolah and pentadbir yg macam ni..puiiiih!

Another one?

Oh Allah, pls help me..
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Another confession has been said to me..and yet, i don't know how to react, and which path should i choose..
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Right now, i have three choices which i have to pick only one and should not be regretted later.
Each of them has a reason for me to choose..
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aaaaaaaaaaa eottoke????
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I don't want to hurt them..don't want to give them hope as well..i myself don't know my heart well, whether i can be loyal or not..who knows my heart will change someday? seriously, i'm caught in the middle..
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is this a sign? a few days ago, i was having a dream. I got engaged to someone. I don't know who am i engaged to, but in that dream i was waiting for his family to come. Some of my friends were there, celebrating me on my engagement day..
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the next day, the dream came again. but it was slightly different..i was preparing lunch for the family, waiting for their visit. perhaps it was 'merisik' ceremony.
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and tonight, here i am..still in a surprised state..huhuu..
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how am i going to make a right decision??
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ya Allah..i need your help..

Bermulanya misi ini..

Misi sudah bermula..3 hari dh misi ni bjalan..misi ape tu~~? jeng jeng jeng~~
misi turunkan berat badan. muahahahaha!
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Start ari selasa ari tu aku g gym.. (org baru nk kenal gym..huhu)
g gym kecik je..yg rakan muda punye, murah sgt..singgit je skali masuk (kalau ahli) klu bkn ahli, 3 hengget..murah khennn..
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tapi, ade jadual die..pompuan ari Ahad, Selasa, kmis je..kul 5-7ptg..ari lain lelaki..malam pn lelaki gak..xpela, ari yg xde lam jadual, g stadium, jogging..keh3..semalam dh bjaye jog 7 round..1 round 400m. ok la tu utk org yg x rajin nk bsukan mcm aku ni kn? hukhuk
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ari ni up lg, jog 3.5km on treadmill la..sit up pn dh up jgak jumlah, dan mcm2 lagi alat yg aku pn xtau nme ape..
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misi aku, nk turunkn 4kg sblm bukak skolah..mampu x agak2? elehhh baru je exercise 3 hari dh kecoh nk kurus. HAHAHAHAHA!
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and..aku x mkn nasik dh 2 hari..mkn lauk je..x nak ambik byk sgt carb..tapiiiiiii!
tadi aku dh 'termakan' one tiny slice of red velvet cake..demmmmmm! hahaha..nk wat mcm mne, dh nmenye anak tokey kek!
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maka aku pn exercise bagai nk rak la td bg mem'burn' balik lemak2 & calories kek tu..huhu~
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aku kena usaha lebih ni..caiyok!

Help meeeeeeee!!

Ohhhhh I'm seriously, desperately want to lose weight..help me! help!
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....but i'm at home now, having a month++ holiday, and am happily lepaking at home, eating, watching movies, watching tv, online, waking up late everyday, and now i'm still worrying myself about my weight?? but how???
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seriously, i feel like i'm fat right now. but i cant stop eating! -_-"
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planning to work out at gym, but dont know where it is..
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planning to buy a treadmill or any kind of exercise equipment, but they are kinda expensive, and i'm a money lover..i love my money <3 lol
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ohhhhhhhhh somebody pls help me!! *well, no one can help me except myself!*
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need to lose around 10 kgs. hahaha i'm crazy. what to do..i'm craving to have this kind of body figure:

 slim, and long-legged..

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or..like this..

or..

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like this..

they are making me stressed out! wuhuhuuuu ottoke?? 

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this body conscious issue never leaves me alone..like my friend said, she heard this for countless times since we were in university...till now..hukhuk..

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for a food lover like me, this is a very difficult issue..pffffffffftttt..haha

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once again, HELP!!

entah la labuu

Bile xde, sorg pn xde..
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Bile ade, rmai la pulakk..
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cube teka apa dia? huhuhu
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confused and to be confused ~

tired!

whattt??? it's 12.16 already! i just looked at the clock. oh nooooooo!!
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it means that i've been cleaning my house for about 4 hours?? woooww! and it's at night!
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i started cleaning at 8 o'clock, and planning to eat after finish cleaning. but i thought it was 10 o'clock! *sigh~*
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still not having a shower yet..not having a dinner yet (well it should be called midnight supper i think?)..not even starting tidying and folding a big mountain of my clothes!
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oh welllll this is life. hohooo..have to finish all those chores before go to bed.. of course i have to! my parents are coming tomorrow..aaaaaaaa!

so shad!!

AAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..soooo shaaaaadddd.. :( :( :(
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again...again..again..
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my so called crush got engaged today.. :( :(
sadddddd..
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wait, i have a few crushes, but they had gone one by one..so shaaaaadddd T_______T

If One Day..

"If one day I give you a ring, that means I want to marry you.."

^______________^ i smiled broadly, but still kept in mind that he said 'if'.
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nothing much to say..
but i'm happy to hear that..heheee.. :)

A shocking confession

i am still in a surprised state. O_O
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someone has confessed to me something. omg. should i trust it? hohoooo~

31.Aug

Finished my assignment for Induksi last night. It took only 4 hours. Thank god there were too many information i found in the internet. Copy.Paste.Edit ^ ^
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Have been reading a bit of the notes. Just 2 pages. Hohoooo..
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Also, happy merdeka day everyone. i always missed to see the events on the TV when it comes to 31st August coz i always overslept on those days. lol

somewhere called HOME

* living in my hometown, but still it's not my OWN house.
* eeeeverything inside this house is also not mine. yes i know.
* and, what's the purpose if u turn on the TV, and dont even want to watch it, but u scold others when they want to change to other channel? and absolutely the channel is 391 ---> my fav channel
* and what's the reason of having all those sorts of channels, but dont want others to watch it?
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i'm soooooooooooooo frustrated with this person. NO WONDER all my siblings feel uncomfortable and have no feeling towards this person. in the future, dont regret too much.

Joget joget joget

ari ni dh ahad..ya, sgt seronok x terkata mau pulang ke kg halaman..ekekek..awl plak tu..selasa malam dh chow~ jgn jeles..
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tapi, yg mnjadi kerunsingan aku sekarang ni, naik2 cti je ada program sambutan raya n aku ajk persembahan (as usual la). nk buat tarian, kne praktis. dan praktisnye bru hr ni skali sbb ari kmis mnggu lpas bru ada meeting jawatankuasa kanz..kira ekspress dh aku ni..
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ok back to the topic. naik cti je ari rabu nye tu smbutan raya. n the problem is, mnggu ni aku available kt skolah ahad, isnin & selasa je. naik cti, ahd & isnin msih blum pulang ke sarang (memandangkan tiket sgt laris sekali dan aku tpaksa mnjadi mngsa). selasa bru aku ada kt skolah, rabu dh start prog..mampussss aku..
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yg jd susah tu, bdk2 sekolah ni nk mnari pn kerasssss..prog ni pulak program RIMUP. nk kena ada integrasi kaum, so kne cmpur non muslim la..bila cmpur, diorng yg siam2 ni xbleh nk melembutkn diri dan tersangatlah keras..haduii aku pn xtau la ape nk jd ni..bdk siam yg ada pn tersangat la limited jumlahnye..buat 2 grup lal tu tarian. aku handle 1 je, 1 lg bg kt cg sorg lg.buat la nk wat cmne pn..
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taun ni aku ajar step basix joget je..basic okayyy..yg 1 step ke dpan 1 step ke blkg tu..itu punnnnn mcm robot dh aku tgk..uhuuuuuuuuuu eottoke??
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ntah la labu..aku ni kira berserah dh ni..mane nk cr pnyanyi lg, nasyid lagi..adododoii..best bangang kot..
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sekian saja rapikan hari ini..mekaseyy!

bleh jadi gila ni!

bulan puasa dh separuh berlalu..lebih separuh dh pn..tp x terasa sgt pn. sekejap je blalu...
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dan aku..terus dihentam dgn kerja yg x henti2.. -_-"
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koir nk lwn dh bln 9, tp dok tnggang langgang lg.
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bdk2 nk spm, trial dh start next week - aku yg dok mnggelabah study~
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dh dpt keje bru plak dh, ajk psembahan smbutan raya, right after the school break, smpat ke aku nk latih bebudak tu? dh la koir pn aku jgak..arrgggghhh!! skang jgak aku rasa nk belah dua badan aku..
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dh tensyen ngn spm, pmr pn aku kne bdebar2 gak..pn kne study, korek sana sini, target itu ini, just because i teach english & maths for pmr tuition. walaupun 2 org je..tp sbb bayaran yg diterima agak tnggi, makanya aku kna usaha lebih la..
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mark buku lg, nk kna htr kt pngtua bulan ni, msti sblm cti kn? mmpus akuuuu..
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smpai aku sndiri pn lupe pasal induksi. seriuuuss aku lupe.. ye, aku nk kne study tu. nk buat esaimen lg. aiseymen..x raya dh aku!
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oh lupe lg, exam paper x mark lagiiiii!! adodoiii..nk kne key in markah lak tu nnt..
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nilam aku mmg sudah terabai, apetah lg badan pngawas..lantak la nk jd ape..aku xmau jd ckgu pngwas la weh! dh toksah nk lantik2 aku..ptuii!
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toloooooongggg!!!

Happy Teacher's Day

Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers in the world..including my mom n dad..

Legaaa sbb smbutan dh tamat..stress aku duk pantau bdk2 handle program..yela, klu ade yg x kena, aku as the advisor la dlu yg kena.. seb baik smua went smoothly..mksudnya bdk2 tu xde la bongok sgt kn..reti la jgak nk handle prog..

Tapi ade gak la 2, 3 bnda yg memanaskan ati di hari guru yg bahagia ni..ade je mangkuk2 ayun x kira la ckgu ke student ke nk bg aku hot..nyampahhh.. 

Puding n dadih aku buat n jual mmg laris..klu tau cmtu, baik aku buat lebih lagi kn..hishh x sngka plak mndapat smbutan rmai..hahaha..tapi yg x puas atinya, they were supposed to give the pudding or dadih tu kt ckgu2..beli, n tulis nama ckgu kt kad yg ada kt ctu dan bagi la kt ckgu..what happened then? they eat all those stuffs! diorang beli utk mkn, bkn utk ckgu2..patut la aku xnmpk pn ckgu2 dpt bnda tu..mmg x dpt tahan godaan ni..ada tu beli smpai 3,4, tp bila tny knapa x p bg kt ckgu? jwpn diorg, x smpt.. (smbil mnyuap puding ke dlm mulut sndiri) ni x smpt ke, mmg nk mkn? hohooo

Well, aku x la dpt byk adiah pn..tp klu kt skolah aku tu, bleh cnsider byk la..rmai ckgu yg xdpt adiah pn..ada yg dpt 1 je..aku ni kira btuah la ckit wpun x smpai 10 adiahnye..bdk2 skolah aku mmg pesen x hiraukn ckgu2 pn..jgnkn kata adiah, ucap slmt ht guru pn x..klu ada pn 2,3 org je..klu dh namanya skolah corot tu, pmikiran pn corot..dtg skolah bukan nk raikan ckgu, tp nk dating. ramai la yg kne tngkap td..siap bpeluk2 tngkp gmbar..amboihh..Hg igt tu skolah atok hg?? apa nk jadi la ngn skolah aku tu..kdg2 fedup gile kot tgk prangai..mse psembahan pn sama..klu dh jnis otak bodo, choral speaking pn diorg nk gelak..hello, belum lg tgk yg menang..lg gedik kot..aku tau knapa, sbbnye diorg tu bodo english..mmg x reti bahasa la..sume pakat duk jadi beruk masa psembahan td..bodo pnye bdk2..

Tula, bila masuk bab bdk2 je aku terus je jd x bkenan..ari ni saja pn dh brp byk aku duk mnyumpah seranah..mental n otak xde..beza sungguh dgn time kita skolah dlu2..p salam jumpa ckgu2, mtk maaf, ucap slmt hr guru..xde, korang xkn jmpa suasana tu kt skolah aku ye..ckgu2 ni diorg buat x nmpk je..

itu jela aku nk cakap..teacher's day bukanlah hari yg bahagia utk ckgu2..apa la nasib dpt skolah yg mcm beruk smua..kmi ckgu2 ni smuanya zookeeper..bila la aku dpt rasa hr guru yg best..

Sangatt puas ati dan gumbira.. it's been a long time a haven't updated..my busyuk2 lappy was actually broken and was hospitalized. sekarang dia dah sehat. alhamdulillah, duit poket masih selamat..hoho~

i had no heart to decorate or ask my students to decorate our 'beloved' class.mg kalau ikutkan, taun ni xmau ambik tau la senang cite. lantak la org nk kata apa pn..tapiii, it happened last week, my students asked me bila nk hias kelas..i was like, ???? betul ke ape yg aku dengar ni? they asked me about alas meja n so on n so forth..aku cakap, boleeehhh, tp, DUITTT,,duit, duit, duit..aku kerahkan jgak la diorang bayar, tp xde la kerahkan sgt pn..mtk je, trus bayar..senang pulak ek? ajaib..

mood aku yg sebelum ni mmg xmau hias langsung la kelas aku, trus jadi semangat..diorg smangat, aku pn trus otometik jadi semangat. paham2 ajela kan..kelas yg aku pegang tu kelas paaaaaling corot n paling buas la kt skolah tu..smua ckgu pn sedia maklum diorang tu sangaattt buas..4 org je gurls, 22 boys. mane x haru wey.. tapi yg hadir ke sekolah hari2, 12 org, 14 org je..jmlh paling byk pn, 15 kot?

yang sangat ajaib tu, diorang nk hias kelas..ok xpe, aku p beli la barang2 n aku design on paper. diorang laksanakan ape yg aku design tu..yg heran n menakjubkn lagi, kami plan nk hias kelas ari ni, ari jumaat..kn bukan ari skolah tu..aku mmg x harap apa2 la..klu ada yg mncul pn myb 3,4 org je..x pn aku sekor je tercongok kt ctu..tapi, expectation aku salah..diorang datang! WAHHH ajaib! siap dh ade yg tnggu aku pkul 8.30 pagi td..diorang smpai lg awal dr aku?? triple wahhh!

aku pulak, beli 10 bungkes jela nasik lemak dah aku igt yg akn mncul pn 3,4 orang je..tup2 yg mncul, belas2 gak la..sama byk ngn jmlah kt kelas time skolah? breakfast dlu sama2, baru start wat kerja.. smbil2 mkn, aku x dapat mnahan rasa tkjub aku lalu berkata, "ampa ni bgus jgak no..saya igtkn xdak sapa yg akan mncul..igtkn saya sorang ja yg akn tertonggeng2 wat kerja kt cni.." diorang suka la kalau puji2 ckit..biasa, budak2..

dh siap mkn, okeh, operasi bermula..mmg smua buat kerja..aku arah sana cni smbil tgn aku pn buat kerja..aku rasa, sekarang aku paham dh..diorang ni kelas corot, mmg malas gila time blaja, xtau nk ckp mcm mana dh..sgt3 malas n kurg adab bila time skolah..tapi bila suruh buat bnda2 yg hias2 kelas ni, x blaja, xpe, diorang rajin..cuma malas nak BELAJAR saja..from zero, skg kelas aku CANTEQ gilo..PINK colour..HAHAHAHA..diorang pn pasrah aje la..dah la majoriti jantan, buas2 lak tu, tapi tgk2 kelas pink..tula, sape suruh x pegi beli sendiri brg tu..kn dh padan muka..

kalau la time tusyen petang2 diorang rajin cmni, aman rasenye ckgu2 diorang..ini tidak, time tusyen je, klas aku, MISSING! yg tnggal pn bdk pmpuan jela..klu ade bdk laki pn, 2,3 org je..seb baik gabung ngn kelas sebelah..nmpk la ramai ckit..tu la, like i said, diorang x mau belajar..bnda2 guna otak ni diorang x minat..guna fizikal xpe..

PUAS ATI gilo den..aku nk org2 yg duk bising kata kelas aku asyik corot tu tgk, n bagi beliak bijik mata bila tengok kelas aku. nak2 lagi budak2 kelas depan tu..ooo last year korang menang pn sebab aku guru kelasnye..skg jgn nk blagak okeh..kelas korang mmg cantik, tp itu last week. ari ni, kelas aku lagiiii cantik drp kelas korang. muahahahaha..korang tengok la nanti..

SEKIAN bebelan melampau. papai~

i'm jealous!

i used to have a crush when i was in school.

today i met him.

at a friend's wedding.

with his girlfriend.

which is also my friend.

i'm so sad & jealous!

T_T

i tought i didnt hv any feeling

towards him anymore.

but then i realise

i still have it.

that's why my heart ached.

poor me!

Legaaaaa yg amat!

Selesai sudah satu bebanan. Legaa~~~ sakit otak aku lama2 duk terkejar2 uruskan menatang pentauliahan tu..yela, 2 org je yg handle, mne x nk pengsan!

And yg paling syioknye, for the rest of my life, aku x pnah jadi MC @ pngacara majlis, n pagi tadi aku dh pecah rekod..hua3..aku sorg kt ats stage, smua yg lain kt bawah, termasuk tetamu jmputan tu..mnggeletar lutut aku rasenye..tp mula2 tu je la yg bdegup kncangnye, pastu ok dh..

Pentauliahan buat ala-ala konvo, tnduk dulu, pastu bru amik sijil.Alaaa..macam knvo dlu2 tu..aku dh la 1st time jd MC, teks mmg lengkap dh la siap ngn pantun segala..tiba2, nk dijadikan cerita, smlm, dlm pkul 8 mlm cmtu, aku tergerak hati untuk call pegawai polis yg nk dtg tu..ari tu dh dpt cnfirmation, tp sje la call nk iugtkn die kne sampai b4 7.30. Dengan selambanya dia berkata, "Saya kt KL ni cikgu..x selesai lagi urusan saya.." dan aku pn 'WWHAAATTT???' menggelabah seorang diri..bile aku tny sape yg akn ganti die, die bleh plak ckp, "Saya x pasti la sape yg ganti saya nt..ada la tu kot"..haaaaa?? Kot ko kate??? Aku mmg x tenang la smlm..yela, nnt aku nk umukn nama sape??? buatnye polis yg tu x smpai2? xkn pngetua je yg nk bg watikah?? ape barang..

Pastu pagi td aku p skolah awal gile kot..nk p kantin lgi, tny pasal jamuan tu ready x..nk berkejar ke dewan lg cek pengawas mana yg x hadir sbb aku nk sebut nama sekor2 nt..nk cr pegawai polis yg datang tu lagi..aku mmg stress gile la..mmg tdo pn x lena..huhu..tapi naseb baik Allah tolong aku..syukur alhamdulillah..bile aku call peg polis yg spatutnya hadir tu, die ckp, "saya sndiri yang p..nak sampai dah.." Fuhhhh lega bebenor aku..tepat je 7.30, majlis on..

Orang nmpak aku cool je, siap berpantun2, tapi seb baik la jantung duduk kt dlm..klu duk kt luar badan, mcm belon dh kot..hahaha..

Time rehat aku selisih ngn 'bos besar'..aka pngetua tersayang..dari jauh dh senyum siap angkat tgk buat sign 'best' lg..dia cakap, "tahniah Ewani, hebat majlis tadi"..wahh aku rasa cam kembang kempis jap idung aku..hahaha..bukan senang orag tua tu nk puji org..klu cari kesalahan tu ye la slalu..

Lega dah aku..hilang satu bebanan..walaupun keje lain berlambak lg, tp jiwa dh separuh tenang..ye, skrg aku ade 2 lg dokumentasi nk kne buat ye..dan bermacam2 perkara on9 lg..

sekian repekan dr aku..nk p tusyen lak sat gi..tusyen mahal ok..rm40 sejam..kayo den..hahahaha

is there something wrong with me?

i wish to escape. but i think i cant :(

because of i'm the prefect teacher, so for the pentauliahan thingy, i'll be the MC..uwaaaaa!!!
but the weird thing is, i didnt feel nervous (at this moment la) not even shaking like usual..why why?? is there something wrong with my body? and i dont even have the text yet! huahahaha..seriously, am i okay?? it's weird coz usually i'll be shaking all over my body if i have to speak in front of the crowd..

and, and more strange thing, i did not object when i was asked to be the MC. whyyy?? i didnt say yes, and didnt say no, just smiled :) perhaps this is the right time for me to move another step forward. i want to challenge myself. i'm the prefect teacher, so the teacher should be braver to speak in front of the crowd than her students should be. yeah, perhaps it's my time. huhuuuuuu~~~

Just wait, i have a strong feeling that i will proceed to be the MC..fighting! ^^

Benciii!!!!!!!!!

H.E.L.P!!

Tekanan jiwa sungguh la..rasa terbakar2 n terngiang2 je kata2 cg tu tadi..walaupun x cakap direct kt aku, tp rasa mcm terdengar2 la suara die. Huh.

Ceritanya begini..al-kisah la tadi seperti biasa perhimpunan mingguan diadakan. Dan kebetulannya pengawas yang bertugas dan sepatutnya jadi MC pagi td, x datang2. Teks ucapan semua ada kt dia la. Bwk balik konon nk praktis. Budak ni budak Rumah Gemilang (rumah anak yatim), dan bas diorang kebetulan lambat hari ni. So, mereka2 yang ada kt perhimpunan ni pn kelam kabut. Sampai la kaunselor pi bercakap kt microphone, tanya sapa pengawas yang bertugas. Tiba2 dgn pakai mic tu, pi sebut nama aku la pulak. "Ha guru pengawas sapa? Cikgu Ewani?" haa kan dh naik nama aku. Fine la kn. Aku pn bru je mnjejakkan kaki kt dewan belum panas bontot pn lagi duduk. Aku bangun, pegi cari budak2 pengawas grup yg btugas mnggu ni. Semua pakat duk xmau jadi MC. Last2 ada pengawas yg x btugas mnggu tu terkejar2 berlari, bwk teks yg ada. So dia la jd MC. Setel dh.

Alkisah keduanya pulak, tengah2 aku mengajar, datang pengawas bagitau aku bnda yg panas telinga. "Tcer, ckgu Salasiah suruh buat pelantikan Ketua Pengawas cepat. Hari ni jugak." Hamboih, ko ingat bleh main lantik suke2 je ke? Tak reti nk bersabar ke? skg tgh short listed la ni. mmg dh kira undian, tnggal nk intebiu je. Ingat aku xde keje lain? aku ni melambak2 lagi keje yg org lambak kt aku. Pastu, nak hangat lagi, siap ckp, "Tak payah libatkan Sir Lah, ckgu Salasiah ckp suruh cikgu2 baru tu pulak. Cikgu ewani & Cikgu Farhan." Haa yg ni aku berasap telinga. Aku x kisah kalau nk suruh or nk marah aku ke, tapi directly la. Ni apeahal x dtg ckp kt aku direct, tapi p panggil semua pengawas n then suruh bgtau kami??! Ko bangang ke ape? skang ni nama aku dah naik, dan yg x syok tu, berita disampaikan oleh bdk2. Ko nk marah x padan ngn tua ek? lagipun ko sape nk arah2? ko pengetua ke? ke PK Hem? x jugak..ko tu kaunselor je. So jangan nk mnyibuk bg arahan x tentu hala. Aku tau keje aku. Ko buat keje ko je.

Serious aku stress gile kot hari ni. Esk exm, seb baik la kn. Tapi lam minggu ni jgak la nk wat meeting J/kuasa pengawas utk guru2, pastu Selasa ada pertandingan mnggu bahasa plak. byk bnde lagi nk setel. Tambah ngn Nilam yg x setel2 lagi..byk kelas kot. Pastu mai tekanan suruh wat lantikan cepat2. ingtnye nk wat mnggu ni la. xtau smpat ke x. Pastu Kmis ni ade mnsyuarat PIBG. Tak ke bangang?? Nk buat surat tu, surat ni. Nak buat dokumentasi lagi. Weh, korang ingat aku ni robot ke??? Aku dh mula naik mnyampah la kerja jadi ckgu ni. Mngajar tak sgt pn, kerja lain tu yg lebih2. Bodo pnye sistem. Smua pn nk on9. Pntadbiran pn same bangang. X mcm pntadbiran dlu, cool je.

EEEEEEEEEEEE bnciiiiiiiii!!

hargailah weekend anda~

Reeeehaaaaattt sepuas2nya weekend ni..home is the best place ever..

aku nk duk rehat lam rumah je..tensyen keje bagai nk mampos 6 hr kt skolah. cmpur ngn cti jumaat sehari je mggu lepas, tu pn aku wat keje smpai lembik. ari ni aku rehat sepuas2 ati aku..muahahahaha.. *gilo*

next weekend ade kem plak. kem ketua patrol pengakap. aarggghh msti aku yg kne p bmalam kt sana ni..dh aku je ckgu bujang dlm pngakap tu..hukhuk..ok, mknanya next week xde rehat utk aku.

the next weekend after next week lak, cti sehari jerrr..lagi! 3hb 3 kn skolah ganti..hukhuk..penaaaatttt.. tapi, aku x tnggu lama. 8hb tu, kmis mlm, knfem aku chow dh..balik ganung kite. hohoho..

adeyh makin bz lak rasenye..mcm xdan nk bsantai. nk p jln2 pn dh x smpt skg ni..hurmm...

..Restless me.. T_T

Hadoiii ler..tido pn dh tak tenang skang..asyik terjaga2 je..alarm tak bunyik lagi pn dh terjaga. Pastu siap termimpi2 lak tuh..mimpi best takpe gak, ni mimpi skolah! mimpi students, mimpi keje tu keje ni..haaiiihhh...dah ckup stressful dh idup aku ni, skang masuk lam mimpi plak dh?

Tadi meeting ULBS bm bi. Dapat adiah lagi. Kena jd SU. Ngokkkkk..dgr2 yg borang vote utk AJK KSS ari tu pn stiap orang gatal tgn letak nama aku. Kalo letak bahagian Ajk ke, bhgian naib pngerusi ke, xpe la jgak. Keje xla semenimbun sgt. Tapi ni rmai yg vote utk SU. ye, SU lagi!! aku dh nk muntah dh weh mnaip byk bnde.

kenapa semua orang suke sgt naikkan nama aku weh??: y? y???? x bleh tgk aku rehat sikit ke?? n aku pn x paham nape ckgu2 ni suka letak nama aku utk SU. Adakah sebab
a) aku nmpk cam xde keje?
atau
b) aku terlampau bgus buat keje?
atau
c) muka aku seswai jd SU???

yg mana satu ha??

kalau dihimpun2kn segala jwtn yg ada, dh mlmbak2 dh SU aku ni..korang x kesian kt aku ke????

AAAAAAAAAARGGGGG!!!! nk resign!

sewel sudah..

nak muntah hijau dh aku ni..srious rasa nk pengsan..
too much input..

p skolah awal ari ni sbb 7.20 dh kena ada lam dewan, ada prog maulidurrasul.
dgr ceramah smpai kul 9.
kls bderetttt 5 periods smpai kul 2.05
dh la kls full, meeting majalah plak time rehat. (no rehat for me la)
pas rehat, kls, kls, kls
abis kls 2.05, tkejar2 ke bilik guru kmas brg, punch card
p mesyuarat pengakap daerah sik plak pkul 2.30 start
mesyuarat smpai pkul 5, smpai kpala aku dh bdenyut2
kena buat tu, buat ni, rasa nak pengsan kt meja tu jgak *penat otak*
skang aku nmpka katil je.

**off to bed. ZzzZzz

Ada taaakkk??

Nak balikkkkk..(well, i'm still in my hometown) i mean, nak balik for gooood..HELP~~~~

Agak2 ade tak cikgu cikgi yang asal kedah, ngajar kat ganu eh? n ckgu tu nak mtk balik kedah..ade tak ade tak?? pleaseee..nak balik nak balik.. T_T

D is for dangerous

i didnt go to school today. thought that i would be able to go to school and teach as usual.but my body gave a bad sign..i woke up from my bed this morning and suddenly i felt like the floor was not stable and uneven (dizzy symptom). so i texted two of the teachers in my school to pass the message to GPK saying that i was not feeling well and will be taking MC.

I continued my sleep coz standing and walking didnt seem to be right for me as i felt like everything was senget. after 2 hours, i woke up, took bath, had breakfast, and then went to the hospital. It has been 5 days i'm having this fever. i waited, and waited patiently for TWO hours to be called to see the doctor. when i was in the doc's room, he asked me to go to the front room to do blood check up, but asked me to come again at 2.30 since it was already 1 pm and they wanted to have a break. WTF??? i waited for 2 hours just to hear this from him?? i'm not well but then i have to rush back n forth. hey, i was supposed to rest!

Fine. i went back home and lay on my bed. at 2.30 i went there again. i entered the doc's room straight away and the people outside who were waiting to be called just stared at me. i acted cool like nothing happened. the doc asked me to sit and i had to wait for him, AGAIN. what the hell was he doing, i didnt know. after being a zombie for a while, then he came, brought my blood test result. i asked him what's wrong with me, the he said i was suspected dengue. then i just laugh thinking that he was kidding since he was not serious from the start. but then he said, no, this is serious. 'you are suspected dengue'. and i was . . . . . . . . . (could not thinking for a while), 'DENGUE??'

he gave me 2 days MC and asked me to come back again a day after tomorrow to check my blood again. if it is truely dengue, then i will be hospitalized..aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..oettoke? i have no one here.. :(

i hope i will get well soon. and, i dont want to be a dengue victim!

demam xmau pergiiii

Masuk hr ni dh 3 hari aku demam. tak tau la esk mampu ke tak aku nk balik kedah ni..td rse cam dh ok, ni tiba2 mlm ni die dtg balik..hukhuk cmne ni?? tak larat wey aku nk naik bas..pastu kt sne sorang2.. :( tapi klu ikutkn ati, nak je aku mc sminggu..x best g skolah.

tak laraaattt.....

adoii x larat..apala nasib..cti pjg, tp demam la plak..biasa x demam2 pn..ni apesal balik umah bru nk demam? huhuuu..cepat la demam kau pergiii..aku nk enjoy cti aku ni..satu haaram kerja pn aku x siapkn lg nih.. :(

kisah terlepas kandang..

Hahahaha.. *gelak besor nampak*

Puas ati sbb ari ni dlm sejarah aku terlepas kandang bleh kluar malam kt kg sndiri..
klu time blaja dlu, even kt kedah pn, x kesah la aku nk balik pkul brp pn..kdg2 balik 3 pg pn xpe..tp ni kt umah weyy..kt kampung halamanku, live with parents, lainnn..mmg slalu pn kluar siang je, balik paling lmbt kul 8 lebih..tp hr ni, bkn balik yg mlm, tp mlm bru nk kluar..hohoho..

Telepas gak aku..skg dh slmt pulang umah pn..member2 ajak bkumpul mkn2 kt SR..smbil2 one of us nk bg perutusan kawen..tu yg buat gathering tu.. *smlm dh gather, ari ni gather lg* hohoho..serunukkk tau..

and my dad, speechless gamaknye..aku igtkn die tau aku nk kluar mlm ni..dh bgtau dh kt mak aku..adik2 pn sume dh tau..myb die missing kt mne2 kot time tu..aku pn x sedar..igtkn dh tau la dh bdk2 ni bising tny aku nk g mne kn..skali member aku smpai umah daaa..dtg nk ambik aku, siap msuk dlm umah lg..pastu bapak aku tny aku, nk pegi mne? hahahahaha..time tu die x bleh la kata x boleh kn..sbb mmber aku dh tnggu..so aku slm cepat2, blah..heee~

* oh ye, lupe lak nk cite..td aku order prawn macaroni cheese tu la, my all time feveret..tp bile dpt, aku tgk mcm pelik je rupe die..fine la, aku makan je..but i felt like something was missing there..pas mkn 2,3 suap, 'haaaa..aku igt dh ape yg xde..' member2 aku tercengang2..lalu aku panggil la waiter nye..aku alih pinggan ke tepi ckit, pastu aku tnye 'cube tgk, ape yg kurang?' budak waiter tu pn terkedu kot aku tnye soalan cmtu.. 'emm..ape ek?' eh budak ni..die tnye aku balik plak dh..pstu aku tlg la jwbkn, 'mushroom yg xde'. 'oooo..btul la..' ceh pandai plak die nk sedar yg mushroom xde la dish tu..huhu..tepakse la die ambik pnggan aku p alter balik..

holiday sakan..

Adoii penat..ngantuk..smua ada..skang aku asyik tdo awal je..x bjaga smpai 3,4 pg dh wpun cti..huhu
cuti kali ni pack woo..

jumaat - aku smpai, tdo, bgun n relaz2 je (hr 1st)

sbtu - knduri member, kne la pegi..malam lak g mnymbut kepulangan adik trcenta kt airport..dh la flight asyik delay je..tpkase la tnggu smpai tgh mlm..kul 1 pg bru smpai umah

ahad - bgun pg, rilek2, mkn mknn pelik2 dr endon (yg adik aku bwk balik), tgh hr prepare dessert utk bwk g picnic, ptg g picnic n bbq ngn member. balik mgrib..pas isyak g umah nenek lak..mkn lagi..kul 11 lebih, bru smpai umah.

isnin (esk) - bapakku dh mule mnyarankn nk p picnic kt La Hot Spring plak dh.. (ayark..bru je aku picnic td..hoho)..katenye kul 7.30 pg golek tayar.. (kne la bgun awal esk..) mlm, plannye ngn kwn2 mau ke secret recipe..hahaha (lepas ke x lepas blkg kire, yg pnting aku nk g jgak)

begitu la padatnye aktiviti2 aku stkt esk..pasni bleh disusun lg..keje yg aku bwk balik ni pn x bsentuh lagi..masih kemas lam beg, muahaha

hip hip hurray!

Yeayyyy!! yippiee~

i'm already home :) just woke up..hahaha..smlm x dpt tdo sgt lam bas..sejuuuukk mak oi..tpakse la tdo lame pg ni *alasan nk cover* hehe

Cti skolah aku sptutnya smpai selasa je,. ok dh beli lme dh pn tket..u know la kn, klu tiket belah klate ganung ni mmg hot selling..slalu je abis x mnyempat2..tu pn mse beli tket yg tu, dh abis pg, tpkse amek mlm. Daann dgn tbe2nye, ari ape ek, ari rabu lpas kot x silap aku, surat drp pngetua ckp cti dipnjgkn smpai sbtu. #@#$%$^&&*((*^^&%$$%## betoll la..aku bengang la jugak..mmg  la eksaited cti lme, tp bengang sbb tiket. tket nk dtg kedah balik tu tah ade ke x kalo dh beli lewat cmni. kt dpn2 tu jgak aku bising smbil bleter ckp dh bli tket, nnt nk bli tket yg lain xtau lg ade ke x bla bla bla n sbgainya.Tbe2 pngetua dtg kt aku, "Awat ewani?" dlm ati aku, ha bgusla klu org tua ni dengar. tu la org lain cti smpai sbtu, kita ja yg thegeh2 nk cti sekerat. pstu ppd wajibkn selaras cti same ngn org lain. bru nk tegedik2 balik smbung cti..geram btul aku kt org tua tu. "Drive la..bwk kreta balik." amboih..aku ni klu ikutan ati mmg nk drive je balik. tp dh babapk aku dh bagi..xkan nk ingkar plak kn..huhu

Pagi tu jgak aku msj mak bapak aku mtk tlg cr tiket ade lg ke x..jual je tket lme..ksian diorg..asyik kne terkejar2 cari tket utk aku..bukan niatku nk susahkn diorang.. mianhae omma, appa.. T_T mlm tu, bapak aku p cr tiket, seb baik ade tau..fuh aku pn rase lega..so setel la mslh tiket..

fuhh ok slesai membebel ye.

jom enjoy holidayyyy!!! hepi holiday frenz! :D yg x cti, jgn jelezzzz :p

Come on..dont lazy lazy ah..

* menghitung hari * cepat la masa berlalu.. T_T

weekend dh pn berlalu dengan jayanya..ditemani Faezah dan kami pn beronggeng2 la ke Autocity dan Jusco Bandar Baru Perda (jalan2 cari makan)

Thanks Fae cayang for the novel and present. Tangan dh gatal2 nak pegang n bukak, tapi hati kata jangan. Sabarrr..wait for the date, baru bleh bukak..apela judul buku tu ye..mcm suspen je..hahaha (adakah buku berkaitan dgn jodoh? O.o )

Fae pulang ke sarang, dan aku kembali keseorangan. Menempuh hari2 bosan di SMK Batu Lapan. Huk banyak betul kerja..aku bru je kembali ke alam nyata. Cuti 3 hari malas nk sentuh ape pn..hari ni bru terhegeh2 nk buat itu ini..hohoho

Malam ni pnye target:
1) siapkn HC n ready utk tampal kt buku
2) min mesy panitia

Sok plak hari selasa:
1) koko persatuan akademik la pulak..adesss (aku dh naik pngkt jd ketua plak..huk2)
2) nk setelkn hal pengawas (pemilihan ketua & pen)

Rabu:
1) baru nk p servis kete (insyaallah klu sempat)
2) siapkn segala mak nenek lesson plan & bahan2 mngajar utk naik cti

kmis:
1) aku x dpt berfikir dgn tenang dh..kira nk balik je..hua3..

*** oh ya, lupa nk ckp..smlm aku mimpi best woo..mimpi kawen ngn micky yoochun..eh bukan, yg sbijik sme ngn yoochun, die cakap melayu beb..hahaha bestnye klu betul2..

Dear Papaku, congratz :)

Hari ni bapakku naik pangkat. Alhamdulillah..syukur pada Allah.
I sent him a short message. (wpun die x bgitau pn die naik pngkat T_T)

" tahniah papa.. :) semoga menjadi pengetua yang cemerlang dan dihormati. Amin.."

i'm not an expressive person..so i dont know how to express my love to people around me..huhuu

papa replied, " terima kasih sayang..insyaAllah.."

wahhh?? i was shocked..papa called me 'sayang'? wuwuwuw amazing..we are both not the expressive type.. :)

Harapanku, papaku akan jadi seorang pengetua yang mesra dgn ckgu2..yg dihormati, bukan ditakuti. yang disegani, bukan dimenyampahi..disayangi, bukan dibenci oleh guru2 dan staff.. ni semua based on my exprience la..pngetua aku, errr..hm x payah la ckp..sume2 yg aku xnak tadi tu la..and i dont want my father to be like him too..

Good luck, papa.. love u :)

kenapa ni??

Badan terasa sengal2..
seawal bangun pagi tadi, smpai mlm dh ni ha..nape aku rse sakit2 ni ek?
lemah badan, rasa x larat, semput x kena tmpat.
buat keje ckit, penat, dah mengah.
tetibe ade rse cucuk2 kt blakang badan, sengal kt tulang kaki.
why?? what's wrong with my body actually?
dh banyak kali aku rase lenguh2 sengal bisa cam ni..
tapi biasanya sekejap2 je..
tapi ari ni? sepanjang hari..
cmna esk nk p mngajar ni?
kepala pn sakit.. :(

even a standard 1 kid knows how to spell!

Terasa cam ajar bdk2 Standard 1..main spelling2 ngn budak form 5..i repeat, form 5.

Tu la, dlu2 xmau blaja, ni bila dh msuk form 5 baru tergedik2 nak blaja la? my target for this 'nazak' candidates is to make sure that they can write at least a short paragraph without grammar mistakes. Tu pn guna simple words je, yg i can say, bdk drjah 2 pun tau la nk guna.

Yes i know, i am their form teacher, and they are my soooooo beloved anak ayam, but having them as my students irritates me a lot. huhuuuu.

"kamu tau x, ni bru minggu pertama, tapi saya dh rasa mnyampah dgn kamu semua"

"memang ini kelas saya, tapi saya x rasa macam nk mngajar kamu pun"

"cuba kamu contohi 5 Amal tahun lepas, depa baik ja, wpun kelas ujung, tapi depa diam & nk blaja. Saya pn rasa hepi ja ajaq depa. Tak mcm kamu, mnyakitkan hati"

haaa itu la yg aku hamburkan tadi. serve them right. baagi insaf sikit. compare2 ngn kls taun lepas, baru diorg tau rasa mcm mana.

Ok tahun ni i can see la the progress. xtau la klu btahan smentara wktu je kn..kot2 awal tahun je yg smgt. memandangkan aku dh warning dan bagi ugutan 1st day ari tu, (tau pn takut), diorang smua ada buku tulis ye. i request for buku panjang. great. klu lpas ni ada yg brani x bwak buku,mmg kena la dgn aku jwbnya. taun ni xdak dh Teacher Ewani yg 'lantak ampa la' tu..gnti ngn yg lebih ganazzz..

semua rajin buat latihan ari ni (wpun ciput je). Can u imagine, they needs the whole 2 periods just to finish a simple silly short paragraph? Aku jugak la yg ajar sebijik2..nak bagi diorang reti buat ayat punye pasal.

Nak compose 1 sentence je pn, amik mase ermmm lam 5 min? hohooo...xtau la aku. tu pn aku yg initiate word by word. Diorang cuma perlu guess and spell je. Merangkak rangkak!

But at least there's n one left out hari ni. semua ikut and follow me step by step. lega la sikit aku. tapi, mmpukah diorg ni igt perkataan2 simple tu? mampukah diorang bertahan kekal rajin buat kerja mcm hari ni? seriously aku nervous giler! cmpur ngn pngetua yg macam errr hampeh n dictator tu? aku risau laaa sbbnye yg akan check buku aku nanti, pengetua! i mean, buku latihan budak2..hohoo x suke!

hohohoho.. *gelak sedapkan ati*

hah ape???? esok ade pencerapan?? mampusss!! dr JPN? hua3..

bru dpt call dr pejabat..kne g amik buku ringkasan la ni..tapi sape yg nk dicerap tu? aku ke?? klu aku je, mampus laaa!! hohoho..aku dh la tak ready ape lagi ni..nak ajar ape pn xtau lg ni..hadussss!