Between Hopes and Reality

"...malam, kau bawalah rinduku untuk dirinya yang jauh diriku..
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...hujan, bawa air mataku yang mengalir membasuh lukaku..
agar dia tahu ku terseksa, tanpa cinta dia di hatiku..
hanya mampu berserah..
moga cahaya tiba nanti...
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..Tuhan, tolong lembutkan hati dia..
untuk terimaku seadanya..
kerna ku tak sanggup, kerna ku tak mampu hidup tanpa dia di sisiku..."
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- petikan lagu Ombak Rindu (sangat match dengan jiwa at this moment) T_T
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Dilema yang menghantuiku Tuhan saja yang tahu..oh hati, bertabahlah..jangan yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran..
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"I like you"..i can only say that in my heart..coz i know you are somebody else's guy.. and we're not meant for each other..
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and i? i have a big dark hole in front of my eyes which is waiting for me to fall into it..i dont know what's inside, is there happiness, or is there grief? oh God please guide me..
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i'm getting crazier day by day thinking of what's going on in my life..i dont have much time left! :(
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"andai itu yang terbaik buatku, lembutkanlah hatiku agar menerima takdirmu ya Allah.."
"ampuni hambamu yang lemah ini..."
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"oh Allah, when I lose my hopes and plans, help me remember that Your love for me is greater than my disappoinments, and Your plans for me are better than my dreams.."